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Disenchanted Kingdom

Well, unfortunately, here I am again venting my frustrations that I can’t really talk about to anyone close to me since it’s all in the family.

I’ll start on a positive note: things with my parents have gotten better and we are at least on speaking terms with them and see them a couple of times a year either at home or in Disney, so that’s a plus in my book. I do realize my relationship with them will never be the same again, which does break my heart, but you have to pick yourself up and move on, because otherwise there will always be sour grapes and that’s not fair to my little boy.

So, y’all know about my Job Judgment post a few months ago, well, things have unfortunately taken a turn in another direction. At least the MIL has knocked off the crap about Disney as far as I know, but the repercussions have not turned out so well in my favor.

Since they’ve changed some rules for the cast members down there, I think the MIL talks to my wife about money and all that (the seed) is completely full grown in her head and she basically has formed the same opinion on Disney as a career, as well. It all started back in February where I thought I could just give them my papers and give up the job with hopes that I could easily get it back once we moved down there. However, when I ran into a friend I used to work with down there, he was in a situation that was not one I wanted to be in: he had to resign a year ago because he couldn’t put in his hours and instead of getting his entertainment job back, he’s stuck in a department he doesn’t like (Quick Service Food and Beverage). I know other friends who haven’t been able to get re-hired because of the same reason and then I realized, “uh oh, that could be me in however many years and I don’t want it to be.” So, I backed out of resigning there and continued to put in my hours to keep my job because seriously, this is my dream that I don’t want to lose in any way, shape, or form.

This decision, however, completely backfired on me and my wife has reached a completely new level of resentment, hostility, and even sometimes anger towards me because of me not wanting to lose my dream job. It seriously breaks my heart that she would do that and feel that towards me when I know some of this comes from the MIL. Since she was never supportive of my Disney job in the first place, she was probably overjoyed when I was potentially resigning, but then got a kick in the face when I chose not to. My wife cannot get over the fact that I “said I would resign and not work there anymore” and the past few times we’ve gone, she basically says to me how she has to lie to her mom (the MIL) about us going…one time when we went after we moved out of her house, the MIL yelled at her and said we were wasting money and doing things completely wrong and so on and so forth. But honestly, this behavior is just one that completely breaks my heart and I so badly want to say to her “we are our own family, who gives a flying rat’s ass what your mom thinks of us going to disney? This is our family, the 3 of us, we are the chief ones, NOT HER…just forget about her opinion and what she has to say.” Obviously, the one thing I’ve grown good at since the whole fiasco went down a few months ago is biting my tongue, which I continue to do, but it’s gotten really bruised and I really fear it’s all gonna come crashing down like a ton of bricks real soon. I try talking to her about it and all I ever hear from her is “I have to lie to my mom because you basically backed out of what you said” and after that she usually just silences/distances herself from me for the rest of the day/night. I’ve tried so many times to explain myself, but she just won’t hear any of it, it’s all about me “going back on resigning and blah, blah, blah,” I hear her talking about it to the MIL all the time, which really annoys the crap out of me.

I understand the upset that she has because she had to give up her job when she got pregnant, and I get her point of view, but on the other hand, there are 2 sides to everything.  I gave up my chance to go full time down there as well as the life I led in another state for her when we found out about her pregnancy.  I mean, am I maybe being too selfish in the matter? I just don’t know and it’s really breaking me down inside.

I need opinions and advice in the matter, I just fear that this is all gonna come crashing down and I’m gonna just feel even more alone than I already do.


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  1. Just as the gods used WWII to justify an influx of new technologies so will they use the impending pestilence which kills over half the world’s population to justify historical medical advances, including the “cure of aging”, initiating the “1000 years with Jesus on Earth”.
    We’ve seen this tactic used recently with AIDS, targetted at homosexuals and blacks in Africa.
    Then, as promised, The End will come with fire::::Global tectonic subduction.

    Anyone the gods role play telepathically or use for positioning in this Situation extensively have a legacy of hurting others. The more they hurt the more eggregious in history their legacy. Considering they tell me my auidence at any one time is nearly half a billion it is not inconceivable Adolph Hitler was reincarnated into the Situation.
    Due to the expansive accumulated audience in this Situation these individuals have now qualified for a legacy of hurting billions of people, and as a result own a very exclusive legacy which will qualify them to be used for the pestilence event which kills half the world’s population:::The monsters of tommarrow.

    The gods behave monsterously in the course of managing Planet Earth, matching our decay, but they demand people be good if you are to have a chance to ascend as a child in a future life.
    Not only is doing the right things important (praying, attoning for your sins, thinking the right way:::accepting humility, modesty, vulnerability), so is avoiding the wrong things important as well:::”Go and sin no more”.
    You NEED active parents who share wisdom to have a real chance to ascend into heaven in a future life, and you MUST be a good parent as well to have that opportunity.

    The dogs are dead.
    And they’re still incurring evil from their prior life(ves).
    Junior Seau is a good example::The real, a 20-something in her next life, making progress, so the gods allow her clone host fake to committ suicide, allowing her off the hook incurring evil in her prior life. AND close the restaurant, her legacy in capitalism.
    Al Davis should be so lucky.

    The antients will offer clues with press releases, most recently about arsenic in rice. Asian herbal therapy may account for this cancer risk but typically not in whites, a reminder to eat within your own culture as well. Recall years ago the gods released a similar report about arsenic in apples. It’s no coincidence our grossly disfavored culture feed our candidates (children) with all manners of apple products.

    There was a very real perception that bi-racial was much worse for the white than it was for the person of color. The liberal culture, which was designed and promoted with the god’s tools to achieve their Apocalyptic goals, screamed racism when there was a very reasonable explanation for this reality::::
    In this white punishment known as the United States the person of color has already adopted the disfavors/temptations intended for another race. But by associating/mating with a person of color the white is newly adopting the disfavors of another culture.
    And this is the reason why people of color are not welcome in the United States. The gods control everything:::The perception they want to create, the thoughts they want you to have.
    People of color can’t recover from absorbing the temptations from two cultures. And why they become more and more like so many blacks in America:::Veterans at absorbing the temptations of two cultures.
    To further illustrate this is why California’s educational system/funding was ranked #1 when California was white:::Education being the basis of the affluent economic system. Now even public higher education has become unaffordable.

    The gods placed us all into our own corners of the globe. As such for thousands of years we spent time and reproduced with out own kind.
    This is why mobilty/travel, biracial unions/offspring and partaking of other cultures is a sin::::
    Each has it’s own elements of disfavor, and by experiencing other cultures you are being exposed to these disfavors, which if people may adopt will make their state even worse than prior.
    The United States has been considered a “melting pot” where rejects from around the world were sent when kicked out of their motherland.
    Remember, this concept of cultural diversity is an element of the liberal platform the gods used to promote societal decay, revealed on the map with the “beast” that is the SanFranciscoBayArea and the spread of social deterioration that spread to the rest of the country and eventually to the entire globe.

    Don’t forget the lessons the ‘ole white preacher taught:::Dancing is a sin.
    The gods used the liberal tool to ridicule away so many taboos, paving the way for the decay of society and ultimately the End Times::::::
    Black behavior was controlled by the KKK. Men’s behavior was controlled by marriage for thousands of years.
    When married by 15 men never gained the taste of promiscuity. Once the gods used the budding liberalism tool the men set the tone for the deteriorating enviornment centered around their gross disfavor.
    Women’s relinquishing control of pre-arranged marriage will be what costs mankind everything in The End. It’s all their fault. The Apocalypse, Rapture, the End Times is women’s fault. Men are pigs, essentially just primally responsive disfavored beings who if given the freedom will abuse based on the impulses the god’s push them into. Whereas under pre-arranged marriage this behavior was contained now the promiscuous fraternity house epitomizes the pinnicle of what a “real man” should be like. And sadly the women fall into line.
    The end of the world is because of the females.

    As with so many things in this life “less is more”. Sex is one of those things. They used the liberal age to promote casual “free” sex intentionally::Combined with “women’s lib” and their initiation into the “trenches” of the workplace as well as other issues like alcohol consumption the people experienced a mass masculinization of the females.
    The gods use sex as temptation. This is why the most disfavored among us are preoccupied with it. While some may feel being well-endowed is a sign of favor the truth is just the opposite. And often the result is misogyny, a belittling of the favored gender, and stagnation of the people as a whole.
    Less is more. When young women experience passing thoughts which say you’re doing something wrong instead of fighting or dismissing the thought you should heed the warning. Sadly in today’s world too many experience prolonged periods of promiscuity in their lives, whereas if married by 15 like throughout human history this disfavor was avoided.
    Don’t forget:::It is children who ascend into heaven, and the absence of sexual activity is one reason. Their general innocence is another, which should help you see the destructive nature of adult life in today’s society.

    Ronald Reagan spent the communist block into submission with defense buildup, and in the process increased the National debt from $1 trillion in 1980 to $6 trillion when he left office.
    W charged both the Iraq and Afghanistan wars to the national debt, honest numbers to come.
    The gods used W to initiate the “Great Recession” with deliberate legislation/regulation changes, allowing the sub-prime fiasco and corporate irresponsibility/criminal behavior which led to the multi-trillion dollar stimulous package, pocketted by Republican friends and donors::::$5 trillion charged to the National credit card.
    This corruption is one element of evil in the party of good. War mongering is another.
    Damned if you do, Damned if you don’t::::With the Democrats you subscribe to social decay via liberlism, which WILL lead to the Apocalypse. Republicans are being used by the gods to bankrupt the United States, ultimately motivating people to the point of “desperation prayer” once anarchy presides::::Punishment designed to correct your behavior.

    The gods have positioned this Situation to look good. They destroyed lives just so they would look good in the public eye. Denying they ruined my childhood entitled them to destroy my health, making my loss complete. They deliberately exceed the deserved abuse in me and others and created bitterness to ensure people fail to recover from their loss.
    “We’ll make it up to you.”::::”We really like you. Everybdy esle got only 1000 years (with Jesus on Earth). You got 10,000. We really like you.”
    If people understood they’d see what vicious, depraved shit the gods can be. They pick someone out to use for their purpose and follow through with the agenda they scripted long, long ago whether in the wrong or not.

    “That’s your alternate.”:::The sole element of disfavor in the next Garden of Eden, setting our new planet on a collision course with an Apocalypse.
    It’s true:::Believers in Jesus can have “everlasting life”. Unfortunately, this is life on Earth, or whichever planet is currently “in play”, and this means thousands of years of slavery, 18 hour days and back-breaking misery 7 days a week. But as long as you dodge the god’s tactics minimizing the numbers of true believers you too can have “everlasting life”.
    Guess it’s better than the KKK.
    Had to fuck my chances up first though, hun? Stack the deck so hard the cards had to fall in one certain direction?
    All these years you could have allowed organic growth of the Situation, but since I would have earned a legacy you’d be compelled to grant me a minimum amount of time. But your compulsion for control (anal) compells you to create the freedom necessary to accomplish your preferred strategy:::Minimizing your culpability. And since you have absolute power there is little chance of any other senario occurring.

    The god’s goal is to create the freedom necessary to justify employing their strategy. German 5th century invasion enabled WWII, Moorish invasion of Italy justified black misery.
    The gods don’t fight fair. Their positioning is a good example, because you will have to negotiate this theater to succeed. THEN the gods will begin their tactics which will be revealed as unfair.
    So many of you invested your whole lives believing “earning” through being evil was the way. When you learn you were hurting yourselves instead of helping yourselves, when you realize you will be punished HARD if you choose to reclaim your chance you too will understand loss.
    The antients created freedom through future health issues. Early was dental isses they prevented from being treated professionally to prepare for inevitable ROger Ebert surgury. Wicked, black heart.

    The gods used the Black Plaugue to motivate Europeans to pray hard and ascend before Christianity ruined European cultures.
    “Virgin” Mary was a hooker and Jesus’s legacy was as a pimp. Mary Magdeline was the woman who made his money for him on the street:::Hedonistic, wicked Mediterreanean hammered by the gods with Noah’s Flood. This is why the gods used this region to launch the Beginning of The End.
    I will bet you this is the truth. He didn’t associate with that prostitute because he was a good guy. That woman made his money for him. And you Christians pray to this monster. You are chumps the gods play for fools.

    If you must chose an organized religion Judism is the best choice. Remember::You’re not there to socialize. Don’t let that tactic cost you; everywhere are people whom the gods have convinced they are “earning”. Even a house of god.
    Temptation has misled you into wickedness:::You’re all going the wrong way, misled by the deception that is our society.

    Repeatedly the gods warned against eating fish. Not shellfish, mind you, for organinisms like crab and lobster have a consciousness of power, one where they can and do defend themselves (clams/muscles bottom feeder toxic filters).
    Any Catholic can attest shellfish on Fridays during lent was like “cheating”, for the gods hold Catholics in condemnation and compell them to hurt themselves as severely as possible.
    But typical fish exhibit a consciousness of constant fear and escape from preditors. This is why the gods like women/girls. And as our envionrment changes, the antients position the masses to be increasingly under control of Artificial Intelligence, this risk of rape dissipates, giving the gods freedom to alter their attitudes towards the female gender and therefore the people as a whole.
    Equality. Be careful what you ask for.
    The leveling of the playing field.

    The gods behave monsterously in the course of managing Planet Earth but they demand people be good if you are to have a chance to ascend in a future life.
    Not only is doing the right things important (praying, attoning for your sins, thinking the right way:::accepting humility, modesty, vulnerability), so is avoiding the wrong things important as well:::”Go and sin no more”.
    You NEED active parents who share wisdom to have a real chance to ascend into heaven in a future life, and you MUST be a good parent as well to have that opportunity. Once your children have been raised something changes, something has been decided about you. This is exactly that.

  2. Wow. Please ignore the nutty person who posted the first reply.

    Ok, first I think the Mother In Law is overly involved and needs to mind her own business.

    Second. You are NOT going to like this, but, you have a wife and child your dreams are less important than providing food/clothing/shelter. I don’t know what your economic situation is, but you need to sit down with your wife and have a clear, calm discussion about how much money you both need to have the life you want to live. With that number figured out, look at the Disney career you want; does it meet those requirements? If so, go for it and talk to your wife about not letting her mother poison your relationship. If not (and I suspect your wife has come to this conclusion already), then it’s time to man up and move on to a new phase of life. You can always have happy memories of the “World’s Happiest Place” and visit repeatedly, but if you continue to chase your dream at the expense of your wife and child, you will find yourself without either.

    Good luck!


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